Hi :)
I know I need to get back on here and write
another blog when my facebook posts start getting longer and
longer...The proof is in the pudding, I guess I have been feeling
inspired lately.
So usually, when I DO write on here, I
come with a rampant mission of topics to discuss, but today I'm just
going to go with the flow. I know I have a whole lot of things I could
talk about, we'll see where my brain takes me.
Usually
what starts me is things I am learning in my own life, so we'll start
there. What is the biggest thing I am learning lately?
I
am not going to get a damn thing in my life/job unless I not only ask
for it, but demand it, remind the people I'm asking, keep showing how
great I am at whatever I'm doing, and don't back down. The things I
want are NOT going to be handed to me. They are going to be given to
the person who is demanding harder than I am.
There
isn't going to be a change in my life unless I make it. Life ain't no
Cinderella story. If I want something different, I have to earn it.
It's very annoying, but I'm pretty sure it's like this for most people.
There's
always going to be more people who disagree with me or just don't
understand me than people who are going to be on my side. But that
doesn't mean I'm wrong. In fact most of the time, when I do have a
conversation with people, they're either very impressed with what I have
to say, or they're belligerent and their counterpoints, are so stupid
that they only encourage me. And sometimes, I am just plain wrong. But
being wrong about a couple things doesn't make you wrong about
everything. I think people are afraid to speak out because they are
afraid of being wrong. I love being wrong because it teaches me new
things--I want to get my words as far out as possible because often, I
am very wise and I think I can help people--and when I am wrong, I'm
helping myself by learning. I don't claim to know it all by speaking
out about things that I have a solid logical argument behind. I do
claim to be proud of my own opinions, and I think that's important as
long as you are using logic and self-improvement as your motivation, and
not selfish reasons.
My life is just always going to
be hard. It's never been easy, it never will be easy. All I can do now
is laugh and realize that it is what I make of it. I can act like
everything's so horrible or really, I can appreciate the blessings I do
have. And sometimes, I can flamboyantly express the 'suckery' of it
all, because every one of us is entitled to do that a few times a week.
But, at the same point, I'm not going to make a big deal out of small
things by letting them take over my life. Self-expression and
depression are two different things. Leading me to my next point--
People
will always make a big deal out of little things. Often, as a consequence, this blurs
what the actual truth is for people who are just listening in on a
conversation, and can cause the weak-minded to see things unclearly, which is why you must always try to listen to things objectively and form your own conclusions. For instance, when I listen to someone vent about the
behavior of someone else. I can objectively watch this and, while,
maybe I don't approve of the behavior of the person who is the subject
of the discussion, in the same token, often this would never bother me
enough to say anything about it. To me it's like, you're behaving
poorly and you need to improve--but unless you are TRULY hurting others,
it's really not something for other people to get all fussy about. And
at my work, watching people get upset because things were left in
places where they don't go--that's just hilarious. It's amazing how
things that don't matter can get blown out of proportion by the right
people. Or even when I'm bothered by something. I've literally had to
vocalize--"Hey--it bothers me, but it's not a big deal," because the
person I was telling this to was acting like it was horrible that
something small and trivial was bothering me (it was loud yelling at a
football game, fyi). When I told this person, who I love dearly that,
they were simply like, "Oh," with an -oops- look on their face. I just
plugged my ears, grimaced, and moved on with my life. Lol.
The title of my book will be, "Dear People, I May Be Annoyed But My Life Didn't End Because Someone Put Eggs In My Frittata."
Life
is what it is and you get what you get, you're annoyed by what you're
annoyed by, you don't like what you don't like, you go through what you
go through and it's NOT a big deal. Unless you make it that.
When
I read over this, it's clear that the main focus of my life is not
anything we're taught to focus on--it's self-improvement and the pure
happiness that comes with that. Push others and push yourself ONLY
where it counts, and don't cause yourself anxiety by worrying about
things that don't matter. Speak your mind, learn, and you may be surprised by how right you are and how wrong other people are. And if you are wrong, you may be surprised by how much you've learned and how glad you are for saying the wrong thing--because without doing that, you would never have been taught something new. Live your life, say what you need to say. Go where you need to go. Never be complacent because you are afraid.
