It's been a while since I have wrote in here! I planned on writing a second half to that other entry, but I felt it would have been repetitive and I was uninspired by it, so I saved you guys the trouble. This isn't a college assignment, of which I feel are energy-sucking, time-consuming, and often an uninspired way to get people to have some sort of proof that they were paying attention, using all the wrong mechanisms to show what they've learned. Here, if I don't feel good about something, I'm dropping it. Not wasting valuable time and energy. And I apply that same notion to my entire life as well.
Lately, I have been making a lot of life changes and a lot of new adjustments. A lot of decisions, and a lot of deliberation are happening this year. It's going to be a pretty huge year for me, because I have some imperative and urgent choices to make. I'm trying to accept the fact that I need to be -okay- with it and just handle it--because whether I like it or not, the due dates are coming. However, I also know I am not REALLY okay with it. I have always hated being forced into a time-limit. I'm just trying to trick myself into not letting the stress get to me. But once it's handled, it will all be downhill from there. It's just the question of HOW to handle it. That's what is throwing me for a loop. I don't even know where. to. start. If there were a simple guidebook on all of this that was foolproof, I'd take care of it and it'd be overwith. I feel as if any wrong turn could dramatically alter my life in a negative way. And I'm handling it pretty well, all things considered. So there is that (sigh of relief).
Anyway, I think my entries from now-forth will be very similar to how they have been, as I am very much the same person, and although a shy, insecure person with those I'm unfamiliar with, I'm extremely secure privately in who I am, which these blogs should absolutely reflect. However, as I'm battling some things right now, you may also see more stuff on stress-management. The entries may have a more personal twist because I'm not only trying to guide you, but I am also using my own logic to help myself navigate life.
And yes, to those who know me in person, and hopefully those who are reading the blog can see this as well, I'll still be the same goofy, happy-go-lucky, adventurous person. That person who is absolutely NOT afraid to make a, "fool," of themselves or say something outlandish because some silly common norm dictates that is somehow, "wrong." I may blush, but deep down I'm always proud of everything I do that comes across as silly or embarrassing. Because I know that none of those things matter. And I know what actually DOES matter. And that's a lot more than what some person judging me by a joke I made can say.
Without values, you've got nothing.
So that is where I am right now :) And I do plan to write in here in the future, but I am not giving you a due date. I don't like those :)
Take care for now.
